My Gender Experiences Pt.1

This is part one of my posts relating to my gender, my experiences with gender and my feelings towards gender. There's a lot for me to say on this topic, so expect a lot more posts on this in the future! I think in this post I'll keep it short(ish) and simple, seeing as it's my first post on this topic.

Okay, so to start of, my gender identity is agender. For any of you who have never come across this term before, here's a definition:

Agender is a term which can be literally translated as 'without gender'. It can be seen either as a non-binary gender identity or as a statement of not having a gender identity. (source: Gender Wiki)

Some people may not understand how I can feel this way. They may not understand how someone could feel anything other that male or female. Sometimes I start to doubt myself and think "maybe I am just male/female" but when I think about my connection with these two genders, they don't really fit me. I try thinking of myself as a male and some parts of that do kind of fit me...but I really wouldn't feel comfortable identifying as male, and I feel the same with identifying as female. I've found that a good way to describe this is as a disconnection to gender. I just don't understand gender, in some sense.

If you have any questions on this, please ask in the comments section! Thank you for reading and goodbye until next time! :) ~Jay